Thinking

Unlike me to be so afraid 

I find myself fearful of losing again

not knowing what to expect has me on edge..

I need some understanding

don't really know how to be better than I used to be

Was feeling like a failure, no motivation or drive

to make moves or create tunes

My mind couldn't focus on anything 

but heartache and pain to begin with

its very difficult to live like this

Having a mate doesn't always make it better

in fact it hurts more sinking deeper into depression

Without my thoughts being sorted, its needed in order to gain profits

Missing, before I go insane, I cant stay in the same place

the one I desire is always away looking for new games to play

but its me causing misery, 

when I just want my best friend back like it was naturally

its too painful to think someone else will win the heart I love