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The pain still burns every time I hear the name I swear I want to get away, I just wonder why it had to be this way Why around my way?  tell me it was your stupidity,  how could you be so mean to me?  I tried to do whats right made the sacrifice to keep you by my side you took me for a fool used me like a tool  so so cruel the man I love I'm his enemy.... imagine my insanity this fool had to learn the hard way love don't love me women full of jealousy from eight to eighty friend or family makes no difference to me they all seem to have a motive I wonder if I really come off as dumb or is it them that has a problem trying to have me go crazy seems to be the theme news for all please leave me with my piece of mind

Ive been watching you  I like yo style I was wondering would you stay a while I want to show you another side of me baby let me take you to ecstasy Bring out the tiger in me I could feel your hands fondling my body Ooh I need to grab you closely hold you in my heart till you cant breathe without me             you drive me crazy make me          want to have your baby Baby let me take you to ecstasy

where were you when i was calling you needing you wanting you right by my side how could you do the things you do  leaving me all  sad and blue boy you made me cry if i ever knew you would be so untrue it would of only been for one night i love you but i love me too and i dont want to feel this way inside the things you say and the things you  do proves to me everything i mean to you your words cut like a knife what you're doing isn't right I pray I pray I pray everyday and night Lord give me strength cause he doesn't understand  he is the  lover and the dad the kind of man I never had why cant he see just what he means to me why cant he be right here standing by my side he's hurting me constantly deserting me the pain is killing me my heart is on the line where are you don't you see me calling  you how convenient now you don't have my time you should of never told me   you'd never leave me lonely I was sitting home solely with no one to console me

M ixed emotions fading fast  I know now what I should have you cant stop me my mind is set  surely you could forgive me but dont forget  the love we share will always be there  I have not one regret I got what I asked for   then wanting and expecting more why would you stay instead of walking out the door or you cant fulfill the need so what you holding on for dont mean to come off raw just keepin it real its your absence thats killing me  If wanting to be with the one you love is a crime I guess Im guilty   guilty of wanting a husband a family and  God in the midst  In my eyes its not too much to ask  someone who is ready for commitment  Im not the only one in this relationship  so whose really being selfish  thats why I say lets call this quits  dont make sense for either  one of us to feel lonely or  be in need or feel pressured to leave take it back to the basics  no love lost cut the ties   love you as long as I live  bonifide breddren wha

How beautiful you are to look at your face Oh Amazing Grace how sweet thou art I prayed when I was lost and you appealed to my heart Mysteries unfold another story to be told manifest through me the power of God Almighty power unreal power man cannot steal can only see and believe How sweet thou are to me Now Im found, I can stand on solid ground Blessed with many talents the Lord opened my eyes and gave me knowledge Wisdom as a name wisdom as my game for this life only time and chance will help you win the race

In everything there is a lesson and everyday is a blessing We alive on a mission children of natures bosom in the streets we gained wisdom lost friends family and freedom loved ones past away too many to say mountains hills and valleys in life cause strain Hearts torn body worn and bruised scarred from all the abuse Creator strengthen me mentally so the pain is washed away physically by the reign of blessings keep your protective hedge around me surround me with the Holy Trinity

When we first started we had lack of conversation........ I kept on talking on every subject at hand the only response I got was to Who dat girl who say you her man? I couldnt understand there were no words before this the only thing that would make you speak was to start an argument Exciting how the words hit like lightning  I know whats on your mind cuz I broke the chain of silence  Its frightening now, my love is on the line let me break it down one more time It be too quiet, restless within myself........ I'll start a riot I know you been trickin off... dont even try it blood boilin, steam could reach the ceiling Vex, look how he breathin you know I got to get even Told you bout dem hoes and friggin with the doe tell that dirty b!#ch dont call here no more Wanted you to let me know whats on your mind I be right beside you still feelin alone Now you want me to leave so Im gone

Seeing you was like a breath of fresh air I counted the days till I would see you again So many things I wanted to say Yet I walked away Heard you got married And have a baby on the way Marriage is very sacred to me Congratulations on your new life A positive change Only wish I had the same Seeing you put a smile on my face That had been misplaced Forgive me for waiting in vain But seeing you made me believe You're not too happy I only hope in time you would think of me Seeing you...

Deep into the mind of a psycho bitch exploring levels deeper than the abyss wish it was like a ditch not in the land of psychosis Playing games with me  is like Russian roulette  my close friends and family know... it can get bitter  deadly rather quickly switching emotions in the blink of an eye Traumatic  Dramatic memories taunt my mind when Im not angry I cry inside emotionally challenged a mental disadvantage Trust is an outlandish wish to think  I have NONE in nothing and no one pray for the day Im gone no longer bringing the storm missing my loved ones got me fucked up  and I go deep in the mind of a psycho bitch  

Every time I turn around you looking at me fuck you looking at Do you know me? Do I remind you of somebody Stay out my GRILL if you aint got shit to say Today may be the day I will go off in your face with the ice pick  dont use mace slice and dice with a razor blade Fuck you in my business for your life that shitty you gotta see what Im doing to gossip with bitches Find you some business I lose my temper quick just for the record you see me shaking it is NOT fear Im trying hard to contain  my anger and rage within your life on the line and the line is thin You really dont wanna know you gone find out keep on.... Focus on you and yours  fix your life and  get your mind right

My hometown is the shit  Queens  from Linden to Merrick  Sutphin to Hollis  2 boro bread  this time 1 I rep  Rockaway to Lefrak  Farmers to the Ave  Springfield to Rosedale  Rochdale to Hillside  I been on both sides  South side to Laurelton  where I used to reside  LA to this day  keep they dirt on the low  They didnt know silencers gone off  ghost already off the scene  murderers and car thieves  Luxury and fast cars breeze thru daily  New faces new changes relocated  replacing strange places