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I have never spoke on this before because it hurt me very deeply but since I have been intentionally healing I feel I can share this experience.. On this day eleven years ago December 18th 2010 I drove from NY to Chicago solo dolo (to be with Red because I thought he was the love of my life even though he was only my companion) because he asked me to come back and I wanted to be next to him. I drove straight into a blizzard, then my legs went out on me, the scariest feeling ever, I threw on the hazards and tried to get to the side lane immediately. I couldnt move my legs, I was in such a panic anyway I hysterically called cuz and she came to rescue me luckily she lived in Indiana at the time, Thanks again cuz❤. I finally was able to see Red after making it to Chicago, but after my cuz came to meet me I couldnt leave her I had to go stay with her, he had a slight attitude about it but I was gonna come back the next day to spend time. We did spend time and when we kissed I sa...

  I want to take you away so far away from the hurts and pains of yesterday I see your pain feel your energy This world is insane Take this walk with me Like a leap of faith Walking into destiny Given a chance to breathe deeply and exhale We can maintain In peace and love Completely unified within and without You leave an opening My heart was slowly closing You need all the attention My feelings started fading Catch me before its too late I'm walking out the door Closing the gate You're not my destiny In faith I believe  I'm walking away 10/15/2018

On my journey, many lessons have I learned People are not always who they appear to be,  some act like they have angel wings Really its a disguise, to hide the real Men and women with the intention of deception I cant comprehend, not being cut from that cloth,  its wasted energy, time and worth naught If you don't know a person, you shouldn't judge them based on what someone said or your misguided thoughts based on a moment. Upgrade your character People have different talents and gifts to use to make positive moves, if you say not you, you haven't spent enough time alone  getting familiar with all of your capabilities.  Become interested in yourself to refrain from getting caught up in negative behaviors. I'm not perfect so this goes for me too, I'm a loner so I spend time reflecting on my nature  and behavior on every level I can think of, as wellness is holistic and involves the whole you. Changing habits and things about yourself to improve the overall being...

 People force you to be mean or nasty because when you are trying hard to be nice, agreeable, or cordial, they seem to think its an invitation to take your kindness for a weakness, take you for granted, or just take advantage. I am NOT a weak woman, I have survived many things and will continue to do so until the Most High says enough is enough. If you don't like what I have to say, its simple do not talk to me, do not visit any of my pages or inquire about me in any way, form or fashion. It makes no sense to me, to want to know anything about someone you do not like, or to be in someone's face you really don't like. I don't have that kind of time to waste, so if I'm in your presence its because I value you an an individual. All of my relationships with people on different levels are genuine and authentic, I deal with people as they are, I do not judge, because I don't know what it took for that person to be where they are, whether good or bad. For all the women...

 Strength in times of need is what we call support from family. Comfort and peace of mind, when you are hurting inside, a loss piece of the whole, can leave you feeling empty in a room full of company Not a soothing feeling to the soul, to think of all the good times spent with pure joy and laughter.  Even the moments when we didn't have the best to share with each other, down to every time we simply looked at each other, know that you are never alone. "I am with you always, my best friend, my heart and soul will always be with you, so rejoice, I'm not suffering, I'm free as can be and you know what I mean" "Smile when you think of me, memories of me should make you happy in knowing where you are I will be no matter how far the distance may seem, the dimension you abide in I am no longer bounded by." "So it's not goodbye I'm now your angel no more disguise, no more sad tears falling from your eyes, tell me you love me when you miss me and sm...

You know how you feel, what irritates you, makes you happy, sad, etc.  Triggers is what you call it because if you see, feel, touch, or hear something  it can change your emotion. A lot of times its not a happy memory, when dealing with trauma,  a trigger can put you in a place of uncertainty, fear and feeling like your life is in jeopardy, not a good feeling. You may have not been there for yourself in the past like you would have been for someone else.  I offer this advice to you, do for yourself as you would another person that you want to make smile, feel better. Say kind things to yourself, do kind things for yourself because you do matter and if you don't take care of yourself you wont be able to be there for anyone else in whatever capacity they need you in. https://imattercommunity.blogspot.com